How????

How do you tell someone so close to you that everything will be OK, and that things aren't as bad as they seem..............when they aren't in the head space to hear it? On any given day, if there is any time I'm not feeling like me, flat, empty, alone............I turn directly to my bestie. She makes everything seem better, every time, no matter what. I'm feeling like I've let her down at the moment, because that's how she feels and I didn't pick up on it. I noticed she was more quiet than normal, I just didn't know the extent of what she was truly feeling. Sorry darlin.

I suppose sometimes we get so wrapped up in our own crap, we don't see the ones closest to us hurting. I guess too, she is good at hiding stuff like that, but I'm one of the few people that still should pick up on it........she is the other half of me after all. How can I make her believe how fabulous she is, how much she is appreciated, loved, wanted and needed. Not just by her own family, but mine too. Without her, I don't think I would have made it through the last 12 months- my own personal hell, and she's been there through all of it! Honestly though, I'm in such debt to her for what she's done for us, not just emotionally.

I guess part of the best friends job, is to shut up and listen, cuddle a whole lot and make sure the supply of chocolate never runs out??? When all else fails, ice cream and The Notebook on DVD, (with a box of tissues, of course!) might help just a little. Maybe I'm clutching at straws right now, but I'll give anything a go. I have to help the most important person in my life weather this storm, she needs an umbrella- that's what I'll be............for as long as it takes.

Ciao bella,

Ral....xo