I'll be ok?

So..............it's been a while- but here we are!! I haven't really been myself for the past 5 months or so. I guess depression- (or whatever the hell it is) will do that to you! So the meds i was on were making me a little more unstable than if I don't take them..............go figure- the crazy pills made me crazy!?! I don't have a whole lot of confidence in the medical community at the best of times......but seriously- who produces the crap that makes you worse than you were to begin with???? So- now I'm doing things my way for a bit.............and to be honest- I feel better at the moment than I have for a long time.

So my beautiful babies are doing ok. Tootsie is going great guns at school...stressing about her ballet exams, and trying to be very cool when she talks about the boys she has a crush on at school!!!(it's sooooooo cute!!) Pickle is georgous- he is starting a new kinder next week....the kind that you still take fruit for everyone to share, and the parents are invited to come in and help when they can!! He also started indoor soccer last week........OMG- it was the cutest thing ever!!! He actually kicked a goal.............for the other team!! And my beautiful baby Buddha- he still melts me every time he looks at me.............those huge brown eyes- WOW!! He is the child that is going to send me broke........with dr's bills(he falls from the things he climbs- constantly) and if he doesn't send me broke- he'll send me to the looney bin!!! Hang on there's a knock at the door now- it may just be the men in white coats!!!

I still haven't heard if you can have more than one soul mate- and if you kids could be you soul mate/s or not.............but I truely believe they're mine.

I have so much crap that I want to say..........but I'm not sure where to start. So I'll think on that and sort some shit in my own head- before I post it here. I gess I just wanted to start the ball rolling on here for me again.........even though no-one reads it....it's kinda cool to get it out of my head. 'Cos lets face it- if you keep burdening you friends- soon........you won't have any.

I'll be ok?? One day.......

Ciao Bella.

Ral xoxo